I received my copy of the book yesterday and the feeling was bit anticlimactic. And a bit surreal. After weeks and months of anticipation when I got the book, it was like holding any other new book. The only difference being that it was my name I saw on the cover. In that sense the experience was a bit unreal. I am still feeling kind of detached, like it’s not happening to me. I suppose it will sink in. The joy of something definitely lies in the anticipation of it.
I am irritated, no, impatient with myself. You know how it is. When you expect to feel something, want to feel something, but just can’t? Here I am holding this extremely good-looking book with kickass production values and all I can think is, hmmm. For God’s sake, my editor is more excited that I am!
Meanwhile friends are clamouring for the party I promised I would throw upon receipt of the first copy. They think I’m being plain curmudgeonly. Perhaps I am.
I find it difficult to concentrate on anything. I mindlessly play Freecell.
When tall, suave, handsome Kaustav Kapoor walks into her office, ditzy private investigator Kasthuri (aka Katie) Kumar has anything but detection on her mind. He is, after all, a scion of Bollywood’s first family—perhaps he has a role for her? Perhaps she will, at last, get to sashay down the red carpet in a designer gown, with flash bulbs following her every move?
But Kapoor’s intentions are much more prosaic: he wishes Katie to trace the heroine of his new blockbuster (and, if Katie’s read the glossies correctly, his life) who is mysteriously AWOL. Despite her misgivings, Katie finds herself unable to refuse the task entrusted to her, and thereon follows a bewildering hunt for the film star across a trail of corpses.
And if that isn’t excitement enough, she has to contend with the maddening and mysterious, but, oh-so-hot, Tejas Deshpande.
The first in a brand new detective series.
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One cannot identify with that feeling not having had that sort of a success, but yes it is a pity joy eludes you the way it does.
It’ll sink in yet.
Boy..I still remember the first copy of “Mobile World” magazine that i published in 1999. The feeling was ‘finally did it’ and did lose 18 lacs on that venture…took 6 years to pay off the debt….Anyway was the most enlightening business experience…Got knowledge and experience which was more than a Harvard MBA degree and a way to make 100 lacs!
Hope that happens soon. Funny that you would consider it a “sinking” in though.
Way to go Kumaar! One hopes that happens to me as well:)
e, that’s just a metaphor!:)
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